bitter

black coffee laced with honey

laced with secrets

laced with truths

like you are there

and i am gone

and i don't like this.

i don't.

just stop.

stop leaving.

stop

stop loving.

stop

stop misbehaving

and making me angry

like

like i don't matter at all.

may the words we speak settle

like

like the coffee i just spilled

laced

laced with honey

honey and heartache and

songs that sing "why?"

honey so sweet

so strong, so sure.

i'm not sure.

not sure of self-importance

and

and not sure of self-loathing

and

and not so sure at all.