heavy heart

heaving 

those everythings became nothingness in an instant and 

here her ears hear a noise obnoxious and

ugh

so silly

judgments made so rash so real so reckless

like bouncing

back

and forth

up

and down

in 

and out because it has become that way.

innocence cut away like a circumcision

quick and

painful

sharp knives make such a difference.