knackered

my brain waves good-bye

going into overdrive

my body stiffens, weakens,

and that ache that never went away 

shivers, sleepy.

i do not know where i will end up

all i know is

my thoughts are dangerous

my mind is a minefield and

i skip lazily through

setting off bomb after bomb until i

crumble

shaking

sweaty

tears streaming

screaming

begging for mercy.

i open my eyes again and 

stretch yawning

like a

cat 

where's my yoga mat

these poses are fit for the studio

go

go

go

awaken alive once again my friend you are

too early

my brain never stops

go 

go

go again and again until

exhausted

i give up

and let it win again.